We spend time with what we love. If we love reading, we can spend hours on a good book. If we love sports, we spend hours playing or watching. I have many 'loves', but one great Love that should blow all the rest out of the water. He created me. He chose me. And He loves me! He madly pursues me. He wants a relationship with me. The God who created the universe. Who's bigger than anything I can imagine, wants a personal relationship with me. And I want that too. I love Him. I want to continue to grow in this relationship with Him; to know Him more. I'm a youth ministry major. I volunteer on mission trips and intern at a Christian camp. I push others to know God more.

Yet, do I personally spend enough time with Him? Sure, I try to do devotions everyday. I wake up early, and cram a 15-20 minute 'quiet time' into my day. And that's it. There's 24 hours in the day, and I give him a quarter of an episode of Psych. I could easily watch two hours of TV or spend an hour on facebook. Yet, I give the God who I declare to love more than anything else only 15 minutes? Why?

I got an email from a friend today. She's going to a school where spending time with God is mandatory, yet she's learning to love it. One thing she said really stuck with me. "Time is so essential if we want to really grow in our relationship with Him, which seems obvious, but so few people do it, ya know? They just expect to be some super christian, but don't really try for it. Or, a LOT of people don't even want to be a super Christian... they just don't want to go to hell, so they show up to church on Sundays or whatever... orrr.... they don't even care about God and they just go through the motions for the friends or time filler... but it's SO MUCH MORE. God just wants to spend TIME with us, because if we do, we will grow closer to His heart, begin to obey His commands, get an "eternal perspective" in that nothing on this earth is really that important. We have one chance here to be God's light to others, and that chance is a little blip in the scope of billions of years with Jesus (or with Satan if one so chooses). I mean, wow! How could you not want to live WHOLEHEARTEDLY for Him?"

After this she told me that she knows I know this, but just needed to vent. But you know what? I needed to hear this. It makes me examine where I'm spending my time. I still think that getting up early to do devos is a good thing. Yet, I know I need more. 15 minutes is not going to cut it. I need a space where there is no time schedule, where I can just sit and soak in God's word, where I can look out and pray for those walking by. It's something that Satan desperately wants to hold from me. But I'll fight for it. I've got to find a spot, a place I can go and just be with God. Because truly, how can I point others towards Christ if I'm not going anywhere with my faith?

A Fresh Start

I've got my fuzzy socks on. I'm watching America's Top Model. I don't have any homework making me feel guilty for this lazy evening. Life is good.